nightmares

scary movies make me have horrible nightmares. so here i am at a ridiculous hour awake and alert. and i am sure i have more vivid dreams than anyone. i think i actually feel the pain. i really cry. and laugh. and fight.

last night i was reading a book called The Voice of Matthew. it's basically the entire book of matthew in script format with Lauren Winner commentating certain parts. really good book. anyway, last night i was reading the part where God keeps coming into everyone's dreams. he comes to joseph a couple of times, then the wise men.

it made me wonder how vivid that was. was it like some image of God, or just a loud voice in a dream? or was it a situation to be interpreted as a message from God?

i found myself waking up in the middle of the night from my horrible nightmares and saying aloud "God, what makes them so special? come on! i want to have dreams of You!"

haha.


i'm sure an afternoon nap will do me just fine.