Wednesday, September 26

what the heck is wrong with me?

Aunt Flo is in town, sister, and she's tearin' down the dam that's holdin' my tears back.

Last night at women's group, Jodi talked about depression. this word has been coming up a lot, actually, within the past couple of weeks in my life in a couple of different situations. All of it is sort of messing me up. Depression has, for as long as I can remember, been the destruction in my family. This is another post for another time.

Anyway, this morning, I woke up and my parents were sitting outside on the porch. I walked outside, sat down, and lost it. I began talking about one my of my best friends Luke, and how I hurt for him so much. I talked about my sister, and how I hurt for her. I told my mom and dad how much I hurt for them. I lost it! Not like me. At all. But it felt so good. My tear-duct dam has been shaking, waiting for someone (Aunt Flo) to take the sledge hammer to it, and r e l e a s e.

So, today, I encourage you. The last person (people) I thought I'd ever "let it out" to would be my parents. So I encourage you. Let it out. To someone. Let it out good.


JennRoogles said...

I Love You.
I have been worried about you. I just told a friend last night that I wish you would be able to open up and get things off your chest. I am glad it happened. Maybe your mom and dad needed to hear something you said. So i know that I don't know Luke that well but is there anything that eli or i could do to help.

We love you anna.

julie p said...

NOTHING is wrong with're REAL.

which, btw, is something most of us have a hard time with. but i am learning from you, anna. thanks.

maybe the guts to do what you did was god's way of providing an answer to your prayers of distress. our god gave you guts....aren't you glad? i am.

jaki good said...

i love you baby! you are an amazing girl!

lauren. said...

i'm glad you let it out